Something I figured out, but do not take my word for it.
This is something that should be questioned...
What if everything that happens for a reason that isn't true....? To take action without a reason, may be a way to live without guilt, or remorse. if there is no reason behind outward actions, then maybe there can be no hidden intentions.
Just an update of what I choose to face for myself, as far as coming to terms with, the past, and with the twist of letting it go, and moving on from there...
The family will be my way of reconciling, yet I do not want to put myself back into the old habits. Also to let them know about my intentions without just leaving them.
That is what this ... By: Minan3. on 18 Aug 11, 17:29:49 That is what this town fails to realize, that there is an "individual" choice, and not a choice based off the majority. It's what sets me behind when talking to people, or when including myself to anything. Like I said in this vid, when I? question people too much, they tend to never talk again, or as I notice a lot, they pretend they do not know me. I question because I will not include myself to anything unless I know it is for a true purpose.
Whether it's a " ... By: soulessphilosopher. on 18 Aug 11, 17:15:36 Whether it's a "good"? act or "bad" one, the choices you make that you deemed fit for yourself and your better outcome are choices for you and nobody else. Though I can't say that you would have to ignore the feelings of said companions and be a total douche, but there are just some people we can't impress. So why bother? Know who your friends are and you may achieve this balance. If you make a choice on yourself, make sure it's for yourself. But make a kind gesture for the ones who care.
when push comes to ... By: Minan3. on 18 Aug 11, 17:06:10 when push comes to tackle down, the people around me will only accept me if I help them out. if I don't and decided to let them figure it out, I'm automatically the bad guy. I can't keep solving? everyone else's problems.
I know, come here ... By: Minan3. on 18 Aug 11, 16:44:48 I know, come here and see how it's sunny side, while the neighors hate people who want to be themselves. I don't follow false faith, and the father is startiing to see where I am coming from. That false hope where religion is too focused on possessions and the gain for more possessions. I let go for a reason, because I do not? want to be victim to my own greed anymore. Also if one decides to take an alternate route without telling people, they are deemed evil, that is me...
No duh you can't ... By: soulessphilosopher. on 18 Aug 11, 15:23:38 No duh you can't trust a Christian. Just 'cause they love God, doesn't mean they care about people they don't know. I too want to help everyone who states their problems, but the best kinda help is to help yourself. Support is nice but people? these days take advantage or take for granted. You can definitely have friends but don't dive too deeply into ones life. Otherwise help turns into slave driving your "friend". We can't save everyone, especially when we're having trouble saving ourselves.
actually, it's my ... By: Minan3. on 18 Aug 11, 09:14:31 actually, it's my bicycle that went missing. I never had a motorbike, and never would make waste to get one. through finding it unnecessary to work for wants, this is pretty much how I know it'll work? for me. I'm not really asking anyone to follow me. I do like to share my experiences since there are people out there who are actually interested. I can form myself without affecting others...
didn't realise you ... By: mistaAnthonyWilson. on 18 Aug 11, 08:20:05 didn't realise you was referring to a motorbike, I could be wrong though I haven't heard of a motorbike with a diesel engine. it is the fuel wagons and buses use, though here in the UK and Europe they have been making cars with diesel engines for many years now or do you mean a pedal bike?
I get around as fast as I can, meaning it takes as long as it takes.
It is worth looking into the "Vegetable oil fuel" for future reference if you grow food and? have a surplus one day to transport.
maybe if I got ... By: Minan3. on 18 Aug 11, 03:19:29 maybe if I got another bike then I could get around faster, but other than that, walking is my other option. Even if I got a car, I would still have to pay for it's license. The thing is to not have too many faraway places to? go.
it is under " ... By: mistaAnthonyWilson. on 18 Aug 11, 02:24:48 it is under "Vegetable oil fuel" on wikipedia rather than bio-diesel which apparently is something else, I have no experience? with Vegetable oil fuel though I know people who do use it and do get their Vegetable oil from takeaways.
I'll have to look ... By: Minan3. on 18 Aug 11, 01:38:38 I'll have to look into that, that is very interesting. this may bypass? the need for buying oil from gas stations...
Thanks, I have ... By: mistaAnthonyWilson. on 18 Aug 11, 01:28:09 Thanks, I have heard that diesel engines can be fuelled by the oil that food takeaways? use and need to dispose of, possibly known as bio-diesel.
Good to see you, keep in touch.
I see what you? ... By: Minan3. on 18 Aug 11, 01:18:23 I see what you? mean.,, it's just like tina turner was singing in mad max beyond thunderdome. We really don't need a hero.
if people in religion had this understanding, the stuff happening behind the scenes would cease, as far as false hope. it looks like I'm beating myself up when I say I do not find this necessary, but that is not the case.
we all have to be a ... By: Judy101101. on 18 Aug 11, 00:53:51 we all have to be a hero - just be your own hero and it sure looks like you are that kind? of hero
I'd say? it came ... By: Minan3. on 18 Aug 11, 00:46:39 I'd say? it came from writing myself out on facebook. The family got to know how I felt, and they accept it. This will be my way of reconciling and letting out my intentions to move on for myself.
I don't call myself a hero, but one who chooses to live, nothing more :)
value yourself - ... By: Judy101101. on 18 Aug 11, 00:26:33 value yourself - demand others see your value - great update - you'll make it happen,? I have faith in you big time - much love
Judy
so proud of you - ... By: Judy101101. on 18 Aug 11, 00:18:17 so proud of you - your a hero to so many. you are setting a great example for others to follow. the best way of teaching is? through example. I'm so impressed with you - great job my friend. much love to you and maybe the forces be with you - Judy
come live in this ... By: Minan3. on 05 Aug 11, 15:51:49 come live in this town and see what extravagant adventure it is here...it is very dull and everyone wants to blend in to be? the same thing...hehe...
it happens to? us ... By: Judy101101. on 05 Aug 11, 15:47:40 it happens to? us all, 52 years I've lost contact with thousands of people over the years - life is like a river, constantly changing. don't think of it as a loss but more of an adventure to meet new people
it just happens to ... By: Minan3. on 05 Aug 11, 15:33:31 it just happens to me, I lose the people I talk to all the time.?
I'll miss you but I ... By: Judy101101. on 05 Aug 11, 15:16:58 I'll miss you but I support you on your path - we all have to walk our own path? and it's best done off line and in person - all the best to you and can't wait to see your next video - be sure to email it to me so I don't miss it. Sometimes I'm slow to watch but I will watch - much love - Judy
love love love ya ... By: Judy101101. on 05 Aug 11, 15:14:02 love love love ya dude - you've got so much right on. I hope we can keep in touch, you'll never loose youtube. I trust you will find your way, you are smart, you've got it going on, your strong, your driven, you're going to do great. You'll be a great example of what others WILL mirror. Don't? be disappointed, you haven't lost anyone but gained as you move onto the next - like the rest of us. LOVE LOVE LOVE YA
Kimi yo yuku? no da ... By: Minan3. on 04 Aug 11, 21:29:05 Kimi yo yuku? no da...
Get back to me as ... By: soulessphilosopher. on 04 Aug 11, 20:37:54 Get back to me as soon as you can? dude. Good luck out there.
Just something I love to do. I do notice that I walking in motion when I do this. It's gotten to the point where I can't stop from motion when humming...
I have yet to do this with action...
When uploading this vid, It looked like the message said "Your life has been uploaded".
Yes, animals are like people. I always tried to ignore the similarity because of the past shyness. I also talk about that chemical love, that you talked about yesterday. I've been down that road numerous times. I also talk about some experiences with riding my bike, and how it works for me.
I see what you mean ... By: Minan3. on 22 Jun 11, 05:41:39 I see what you mean. When I look at someone I may have affected, or was affected by, I often avoid them, and then after seeing them again, I get that shivering vibration sensation in my body. I sense? my guilt when I kill a person, which means forgetting, and not forgiving them. This is why I find it hard to forget about people. what you mean as in avoiding must mean how one may want to focus on one thing, then they are cautious about talking to that one person. my situation now...
I've found avoiding ... By: Judy101101. on 22 Jun 11, 05:25:24 I've found avoiding something makes you have more of a focus on it - ya have to put more work into ignoring something. ? face it - why do you have repeating thoughts that feel shitty? why not transform the old belief into something positive, something that works for you
yeah I can ask a ... By: Minan3. on 21 Jun 11, 20:40:51 yeah I can ask a question as to why they do what they do, and it will distract them. I did it to the father at times, and he couldn't answer. Not to feel that I am better, but if anyone is lost in thought is usually them coming to terms with something that may have happened recently or, happened in the past. I am working on that. erasing thoughts is slightly? working out for me. As far as the addictions, I literally would have to avoid it to stop the thoughts and memories of it
when you hear why ... By: Judy101101. on 21 Jun 11, 20:36:35 when you hear why they need to believe what they do then you know? the right question that makes them question if their belief is really working for them
that's the solution ... By: Minan3. on 21 Jun 11, 18:50:23 that's the solution then because I always wanted to balance out talking back and forth through asking random questions. When talking to father, I sometimes cut him off after every sentence instead of listening? to all he has to say. I mainly did it to stop him from going on to his arbitrary belief. He tends to talk more about what the bible says than what sort of words he should have coming from his self. Sometimes I don't listen and it can reflect in others.
I see your words - ... By: Judy101101. on 21 Jun 11, 18:43:29 I see your words - people who do not want to listen - yet we are talking about you listening to others is the way to get others to listen to you - so don't be looking for anyone to listen to you - just make sure you are the one doing all the listening - you do no talking - see if you can do that and I'm sure the process will magically get people listening to? you
That's the fear ... By: Minan3. on 21 Jun 11, 18:19:09 That's the fear that I am facing now, the more people I can talk to, face-to-face in my area, the more I can listen and share. it's what I want, but I keep perceiving others as those who do not want to listen. I remember this christian guy, he had his belief in his faith, and he listened to what I had to share without signs of scorn. I do listen to people, but pretending to agree is the problem with my? communication as well.
I keep getting this ... By: Judy101101. on 21 Jun 11, 18:09:14 I keep getting this feeling from you and your words that you should be going out and listening to everyone's stories - if you want to be heard you must listen first. I think you'll send a ton of love out into the world if someone like you showed enough love to? listen to all their stories that are not being heard
that's what I do ... By: Minan3. on 21 Jun 11, 18:07:07 that's what I do for people, I go to those who don't have much as others who can listen to them. If I find that they stop talking to me, and have found? people for themselves, I would have to move on, at times it was hard because I was there for the person. There were also times when I helped a person realize their social potential, that they would forget about me, and leave me without a thanks...
you have to work ... By: Judy101101. on 21 Jun 11, 18:02:11 you have to work harder to hear a wisper then? to hear yelling and when one pays that much attention they listen better or hear and comprehend better
"Gentleness is ... By: Minan3. on 21 Jun 11, 18:00:10 "Gentleness is where the strength prevails", so I've heard from a movie. it was a martial arts movie called "street fighter". It's something I need to? apply to myself, even with my tone in my voice, it's softening up a little if you've noticed.
indipendence gives ... By: Judy101101. on 21 Jun 11, 17:45:39 indipendence gives you strength and strong family ties gives you community strength - some times you need to go out to learn who you are just to come back? stronger
I'm aiming to go? ... By: Minan3. on 21 Jun 11, 17:05:21 I'm aiming to go? off the cliff myself, more like fly off the cliff. I'm trying to leave the system gracefully. Getting a place with company, is going to define my independence from family for once. I will also realize that I did it on my own.
good saying - it's ... By: Judy101101. on 21 Jun 11, 16:47:24 good saying - it's hard to watch people walk off a cliff but if that is their way we? must support them and just ask them why they want to jump of cliffs
pewter would ... By: Minan3. on 21 Jun 11, 16:26:30 pewter would scratch me, and bite me, but she would always stay close. Now my perspective on the false love is the lovebombing, faking love to get love. Like say, I would tell someone, I will always love you, and not add up the word
When I was at the college, I read? a quote, that I can't really remember but it said "If you love me, you'll let me go my way"
pets tend? to ... By: Judy101101. on 21 Jun 11, 16:17:26 pets tend? to reflect the personality they have connected with - it's interesting to see the relationships they develop and who they develop that with. when you see yourself in them the more you understand yourself and others - the cat would always run away and express love - do you run away looking for love?
well, I have found ... By: Minan3. on 20 Jun 11, 19:36:47 well, I have found things? out, but for me, it's best not to say what it is, so I won't be going against myself again. I am working on my sharing though.
if biking is your ... By: Judy101101. on 20 Jun 11, 19:32:05 if biking is your thing then it's my job to support you- encourage you, trust without a doubt you will find more about yourself while doing something you love for yourself - not doing what I love :) and the same is true for me - if I must walk then I must love going for those? walks and figuring out why I don't if I don't love waht I know is right for me
No, you are okay ... By: Minan3. on 20 Jun 11, 19:10:36 No, you are okay with what you are doing now...but biking is what I? do, and is for me.
that sounds like ... By: Judy101101. on 20 Jun 11, 13:01:37 that sounds like amazing advice - I'm? going to follow that as well
I'm not on the path ... By: Minan3. on 19 Jun 11, 23:52:51 I'm not on the path yet, I would have to do it as I say for myself to do it. I'll take some food with me for a longer outing, I am going to do this for myself, also to get my mind off of people for? some time, because I focus myself on people all the time and notice myself divided from myself.
sounds like your? ... By: Judy101101. on 19 Jun 11, 23:48:25 sounds like your? on a great path - the future will open up just enjoy your now, your present - great advice you said this just as I typed this so it must true
The scariest thing for me is talking about my ideas to another, then seeing that they base themselves off it when I don't expect them to. I see it as my communication skills that I need to configure...
I've seen enough. I ... By: mistaAnthonyWilson. on 07 Jun 11, 16:28:34 I've seen enough. I AM gonna watch more ov? yore videos though, I could RELATE 2 this. Thanks.
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you'd have to watch ... By: Minan3. on 07 Jun 11, 16:12:47 you'd have to watch more of her vids. it's evident that she really wants to talk, but? there is always an opposition that think everything they say is right. my own mother was like this, so I went away from it. I like to talk to people, not bash them for having a different opinion. She is checking her own reflection, but I don't expect her to be my follower, I am only there to remind people, but also see myself during the interaction.
yeah WE have met ... By: mistaAnthonyWilson. on 07 Jun 11, 15:46:07 yeah WE have met and interacted, IF only she would listen to her SELF and apply what she tells others to her SELF. each to there OWN, this is youtube and no-one needs to watch anything they don't choose 2.
What have I said that even has you considering that you MIGHT consider "projecting MY words back at ME, and blocking _ME_"? he says projecting your words back at you, that's the thing with Judy, she says that frequently YET misses the POINT that she isn't checkin her? OWN reflection OUT
That is her thing,? ... By: Minan3. on 07 Jun 11, 15:27:30 That is her thing,? we usually have good conversation whether either are right or wrong, . I don't mind talking to people, and that is what youtube is for. I'm not going to project your words back at you, and block you. I've been done in like that for asking a single question.
0 RIGHT, U have met ... By: mistaAnthonyWilson. on 07 Jun 11, 07:15:58 0 RIGHT, U have met judy eh, _ME_ 2 ,NOW ther is an offensive person.
_ME_ 2 ,ideas are easy and one has? to be responsible for what one puts OUT, there are those WHO are NOT or WILL abdicate SELF RESPONSIBILITY, I WILL NOT encourage such things MYSELF. nice to meet U.
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That's it about me ... By: Minan3. on 06 Jun 11, 21:25:55 That's it about me as well. I don't know everything myself, so I talk. Asking questions only leads me to thinking about that person. sometimes people do explain themselves to me without question, as I do the same.? so I welcome back and forth, so I can learn on both ends. Sometimes I say that I don't know about something and ask myself questions, and figure it out on my own.
yup looking closer ... By: Judy101101. on 06 Jun 11, 21:14:14 yup looking closer is looking closer inside - we'd do good if we all just said "I? don't know what do you think"? then maybe people will say what they think - most reply - "I don't know" but always have an answer when asked - well, if you did know what do you think - and I always get a responce
Like Rafiki told ... By: Minan3. on 06 Jun 11, 21:08:49 Like Rafiki told Simba,? look closer...
through listening, ... By: Minan3. on 06 Jun 11, 21:04:20 through listening, they can form their own truth, and not my truth. You see it a lot in churches where they say to? be this one way when you, yourself have the say on what you should do.
why? do you want ... By: Judy101101. on 06 Jun 11, 20:54:49 why? do you want people to listen? what would they get out of listening
I want people to ... By: Minan3. on 06 Jun 11, 20:49:34 I want people to listen to? what I have to say, instead of following it.
good job by the way ... By: Judy101101. on 06 Jun 11, 20:47:48 good job by the way - keep it up and you'll just keep building and building yourself. love your neighbors - forgive them for they know not what they are believing. Everyone? is lost and your one of the few who can see - keep looking and you'll see. just let go of everyone else in the world, vlog, vlog, vlog and look what happens after one year. be grateful for just one connection, that's what i do. don't worry about neighbors - I can't talk with people either lol
why wouldn't you ... By: Judy101101. on 06 Jun 11, 20:44:35 why wouldn't you want to be right about something? just? because we were wrong about everything that doesn't' mean in our future we will never know what is right. We are in development. just develop yourself - trust yourself, practice being yourself, know some place deep inside you know yourself perfectly inside and out and that is one thing you can never be wrong about. when you know self, you know it all
I want to find an ... By: Minan3. on 08 Jun 11, 02:18:57 I want to find an accountability partner that is someone other than my family. i even considered running away just to? join someone in another state for this... I want interaction in person, and not some words and a picture on a computer screen.
...flow into them. ... By: BlueMageWithSoulEdge. on 08 Jun 11, 02:08:45 ...flow into them. Know your limit and don't be ashamed to say "that's enough". One more thing, get an accountability partner. Someone whom you can have engaging conversations with and push you as a person.? Someone whom will hold you accountable when you seem to jump off track.
Video games (in general the media) is being pushed on youngsters HARD. With the "Gamer" pseudo community growing it's just another plot to divide and conquer.
I've already ... By: Minan3. on 08 Jun 11, 02:08:11 I've already stopped buying them for nearly six months. I could play the ones I had and wonder "why do I even hold on to them?" then rid them.? I also have a PS3, that I want to get rid of so bad, but I share a room with a treasure troving father, so he's mainly the one playing the PS3, just for a pinball game |:(
It's also hard for him to give up anything...so he thought it was odd that I sold a good portion of the video games...
I'm not trying to ... By: BlueMageWithSoulEdge. on 08 Jun 11, 02:02:29 I'm not trying to debate Tidus roll, even though I can, I was trying to give a thumbs up for paying? attention to the story and getting something out of it. Most people I meet that like FFX know VERY little of the game and like it only for just 'cause reasons. Maybe it's me but I was raised by a father who HATED just 'cause reasoning.
Yeah, if you have an addiction you should immediately distance yourself from it and meditate. Fast if you have to and when you think you are ready easily..
Can I tell you, ... By: Minan3. on 08 Jun 11, 02:02:18 Can I tell you, that not even those in religion really know when the world is? going to to end? I don't see it as the world ending, it's more like the economy will end, since people put their life into money period. this is only my idea, so even i don't know myself. I was disappointed when they said the world was going to end on may 21. then nothing happened. Now they are saying that it will end on oct. 21, whatever...
I just don't like ... By: Minan3. on 08 Jun 11, 01:58:08 I just don't like the clutter, and trust me, what i said in this vid is only the surface of what I have discovered. People think because of my age,? I'm supposed to continue what I always did. I'm making changes in my actions and family can't control it. they keep talking to me like I plan on killing myself, lol. I wrote out notes on facebook, and they thought it was a farewell letter X(.
I know what you ... By: BlueMageWithSoulEdge. on 08 Jun 11, 01:54:00 I know what you mean about the true "fans" types. The ones that only care about the games 'cause it stroke their escape. Not knowing the content, reason, funding nor even the story of which they play. Which they entertain their selves; let into their psychic--i.e. souls.? They are blind to the world and the forces that work against them.
Right now the wheel of corruption is so big that it almost doesn't matter. The only thing I can say is get right, be vigilant and wait for the trumpet.
you don't have to ... By: Minan3. on 08 Jun 11, 01:51:33 you don't have to agree with what I say about tidus, I saw it as him fading away because the fayth dreamt him up due to sleeping and hoping that SIN would go away for good. it's funny if they died they would go to the farplane, and it they faded they went to the farplane. don't forget, zanarkand was a city ruined for a thousand years around the time tidus? made it yuna's time. In order for me to be "here", I've made the decision to cut ties to buying video games...
Just Calm down. ... By: BlueMageWithSoulEdge. on 08 Jun 11, 01:46:14 Just Calm down. Don't turn into a bleeder. A topic like this it? kinda doesn't matter, if you take it back or not, unless the game is evil then you set it on fire or break it. You bought it with your hard earned cash. The battle is always with WHAT you let into your fantasy, when it comes to video games. Enjoying yourself from time to time don't make you a hippie. Believe it or not v.g.'s are toys.
Just know they are fake. A diversion. Know this and the hold breaks.
some people at the ... By: Minan3. on 08 Jun 11, 01:42:16 some people at the job told me that they were surprised that I have given up gaming at he age I am at, because people of my age are still expected to buy video games from getting cash from a? job.
I wish more people ... By: BlueMageWithSoulEdge. on 08 Jun 11, 01:37:36 I wish more people would do what you are doing (with the self analyzing). Remember to read and think for yourself and know that Jesus is true wisdom. With strong faith,? one can stand against anything.
Speaking of faith, I liked your take on FF10 even though I don't agree. I saw Tidus as your "Jesus" character, which FF loves to create. Tidus fading away was like his death for human's sake and the ending [plus X-2] was his "2nd coming".
But whatever helps you grow is good, I suppose.
GOD Bless
I noticed something ... By: Minan3. on 08 Jun 11, 01:37:13 I noticed something about my action as far as selling them though, because I? had sold them back into gamestop, and more people could buy them. I should have thrown them away. I still have some I play at times, but as I said, I turn it off immediately. On a vid about the earthquake in japan, someone said they were hoping that the video game that they were waiting for shipping wouldn't be delayed.
I wonder what gungrave would say if he saw this vid...
Nice seeing that ... By: BlueMageWithSoulEdge. on 08 Jun 11, 01:28:00 Nice seeing that you are growing as a person. It takes balls to do what you are doing now, so don't let anyone/event discourage you. Sorry I've been so silent but life gets in the way 'cause she's a greedy time hogging bitch.
You are right about v.games (so more the market). V.games have gotten to be "fake". The journalism that once was their is now dead; leaving me with the question of whether if it ever was for us the people. Commercialism has control? giving Skinner's Boxes of entertainment
It's what I aim? to ... By: Minan3. on 05 Jun 11, 17:33:05 It's what I aim? to do, thanks!
I know - I am the ... By: Judy101101. on 05 Jun 11, 17:25:46 I know - I am the same way - so take responsibility - put yourself in a power position - if you are so smart and people aren't? hearing you then it's you and how you are speaking - work on your communication skills - use youtube to do that with - ti's helped me out a lot. my communication skills are getting better and better. i've been saying 'people aren't ready" yet it's me that wasn't ready
he is getting the ... By: Minan3. on 05 Jun 11, 17:22:48 he is getting the idea to? some degree, but I can't force him to realize what I have realized. I also can't force him to tell me what I already found out about him. Through talking to a person expect them to scrutinize me, as well as me doing the same to them. This is how I know, there is something wrong with either me, or the person, and we build each other up. People have yet to hear what I have to say.
parents have fears ... By: Judy101101. on 05 Jun 11, 16:59:03 parents have fears - ya gotta give us a break sometimes. generally just ask him what his fears are and give him a bit of information - fear only needs information. your a smart guy - I'd trust what ever direction you go into - if it's a wrong direction - your self aware enough to recognize it and get yourself back on path - we r all off the right path from? time to time - that's where our lessons lie - your father I'm sure wants you smart - so he will not want to take your lessons away
The only problem ... By: Minan3. on 05 Jun 11, 02:15:23 The only problem with what I discover is that? I share a room with my father, and he asked me if I am going muslim. this is my other problem, not telling others what I discover. I've told him what I have been discovering as far as truth about this place, and he realizes that I am soul searching. He used to question why I left the lights off, and it was his fear of me changing into something I am not. I amnot doing that I am realizing myself as me. I'm just saving electricity.
way to many ... By: Judy101101. on 05 Jun 11, 02:03:38 way to many contradictions in bibles? - i totally disagree with what it represents
yeah we can take ... By: Minan3. on 05 Jun 11, 01:49:09 yeah we can take all the info we gain to form our own truth, and I learned that it's not good to force it on another. I've come to realize much about the? bible. there is even a youtuber who is hated for fully understanding the message of god, without the traditions of churches, and he's a metal singer. His youtube is "Metalsays".
I knew it all at 16 ... By: Judy101101. on 05 Jun 11, 01:15:18 I knew it all at 16, then knew it all at 19, then knew it all at 25, then knew it all at 35, by the time i was 40 I decided I will never know it all but then in a way that is wrong lol it's not really about learning but more just experiencing differently - we are creators and we are creating more and more new and different experiences for ourselves - life is in the experiencing the newness of what we create - not in knowing the knew before? we create - kind of like to create is to learn
That's it! Everyone ... By: Minan3. on 05 Jun 11, 01:05:04 That's it! Everyone still has to learn, there were times when I stopped accepting questions because I thought I knew everyone. Boy, was I wrong about that. I still ask myself questions. I will get into that in my next vlog. I have other ideas to express myself that people will see, which is singing, but with no lyric. I sing by breath mostly and make up my own beat with it as well as sound effects. This isn't all for fame, it's for me to know and realize that it's okay to let it out?
when the student is ... By: Judy101101. on 05 Jun 11, 00:46:02 when the student is ready the? teacher appears - this is your video - keep posting and you'll learn a ton from the outer world now. i've learned so much by my channel and still learning - as soon as I'm ready to learn a teacher appears and you've taught me as well
See, now you're ... By: Minan3. on 04 Jun 11, 23:42:17 See, now you're teaching me as well as others? are.
well just relax ... By: Judy101101. on 04 Jun 11, 23:34:12 well just relax and? work at trusting YOU. that excited feeling is a fight/flight are they saying something in ageement or disagreement and how do you handle the disagreement logically according to your own standards -you are scared you might contradict yourself - let yourself fail so you can see yourself fail so you know how to succeed if that makes sences
yes this is what I am, I used xtra normal to upload this vid, I plan to get a webcam soon though... take this for what you will...the name is Joseph Leroy Harris
thats the part? of ... By: Minan3. on 14 Apr 11, 15:19:11 thats the part? of it, I am trying to tell as many people about what I really am, but I'm either scared to do so, or they choose not to listen. even insecure people don't even accept me.
I bet when? people ... By: soulessphilosopher. on 14 Apr 11, 15:14:12 I bet when? people clicked on this, they were expecting something funny.
I too am a horrible excuse for a human being because I don't give a damn about anyone or anything but my self. Since self awareness, it's always been about what I want. Now all I care about is my purpose and my survival to see that purpose. If someone in my family died, yeah, chances are I probably wouldn't shed a tear. Anybody else? Come now, don't be shy! (8D
They are the last three...they make twelve....they join the party....how many more hints do you need !_?
one of these three change job classes throughout the story, who do you think it will be and what job class do you think he will change to?
its from final ... By: Minan3. on 17 Aug 10, 16:26:21 its from final fantasy 8. the theme is called "fisherman's horizon" I loved that theme since I first heard it.? im gonna someday remake my three vids and feature what my new looks for my characters will look like. this will be a pun off FF6
its my fan ... By: Minan3. on 08 Aug 10, 19:49:07 its my fan fictional final fantasy party. I may use them for an idea when I go for my character designing career. out of all of them I? really like the machinist "Machimax". he just looks like he's all neutral and dragged into events easily XD
Noice video, ... By: iPewn. on 08 Aug 10, 17:34:28 Noice video, thumbs'd up :)
also? like the music ^-^
well if you liked ... By: Minan3. on 31 May 10, 23:22:40 well if you liked Final Fantasy, its? from Final Fantasy 8. the OST is called "Fisherman's Horizon". its such a peaceful theme for a town.
hey what is this ... By: searchman3. on 31 May 10, 02:22:11 hey what is this song called?
This Graffiti drawing was requested by Purder7
See my great 3D drawing skills!? They are superb, but the coloring limiting is the problem. I tried to get every detail.
ENJOY IT !_!
"Searchman.EXE's searching you out" XD
i tried to do ... By: Minan3. on 07 Jan 10, 06:37:32 i tried to do everything, but alas, the game limits almost every drawing i make or try? to make X(
5/5? amazing By: purder7. on 24 Dec 09, 22:10:04 5/5? amazing
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not its game ... By: Minan3. on 21 Dec 09, 19:20:32 not its game similar to your avatar. a game on PS2 called "Graffiti kingdom"
Im making a made up party of 12 based on job classes of final fantasy. i made these characters up though and it took? HOURS
what's this? world ... By: purder7. on 21 Dec 09, 19:17:06 what's this? world of warcraft??
i havent forgot, im ... By: Minan3. on 16 Dec 09, 02:53:01 i havent forgot, im making a BlueMage and a Dragoon, but about that last character idk too much about.
how has? your comics been coming along?
well? i needed her ... By: Minan3. on 16 Dec 09, 02:51:22 well? i needed her to look more like a white mage. i need to change her color scheme a little because many white mages have that white and pink color.
I have an idea for rielly-- since he dislikes ashton, i think rielly will mistake him for someone that he dislikes or maybe mistake him for the one who made him suffer crime that he did not commit
yeah i was thinking of cait sith when i started creating drake and beaster
in final fantasy tactics a2 beastmasters wield instruments
1st! Hells Yeah!
I ... By: BlueMageWithSoulEdge. on 15 Dec 09, 20:23:45 1st! Hells Yeah!
I really like Lassie's look. Reilly's profile is funny. I picture Ashton walking alone on his journey and stumble over Reilly and through events he's forced to join you. XD
You? know Drake don't really look like Gau from FF6. Although the pose if reminiscent of Cath Saith. I'm looking forward to the last three and the story. Are you going to do like a YouTube episodes with them?
FF12 FtW. I love that game.
here are my first six characters of a future idea for a story i thought up
made in graffiti kingdom
I redid alot of these characters, plus there are more, i plan to reupload vids with a newer look, details, and backstory for each and every character. procrastination hit me though X(
To anyone viewing ... By: Minan3. on 30 Jan 11, 03:26:19 To anyone viewing this vid, Gabbie had a sex change, she's now a male black mage with a harp.?
wait till you see ... By: Minan3. on 16 Oct 10, 18:54:08 wait till you see what I did to ashton's head. I figured out that the hair was taking up most of? the graffiti drawing so I redid it, i sure hope im not copying cloud strife's hairdo. in actuality, the hair got longer
im remaking them ... By: Minan3. on 22 Jul 10, 09:37:37 im remaking them all, that samurai is next. im trying to apply fingers to most of them. you may like Sai-Gan the next time you see him? :D
lol this wasn't ... By: Minan3. on 08 May 10, 05:04:07 lol this wasn't christmas music, but thanks for your offer. christmas is the best time of year? XD
If you like ripping ... By: baoc2007. on 13 Apr 10, 09:30:08 If you like ripping Christmas music then please visit our youtube profile site. NLO has some of the? most amazing guitarist ever to inhabit planet earth.
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im also thinking ... By: Minan3. on 03 Dec 09, 01:08:06 im also thinking about changing ash's headwear a little he seems a little squished in because of the hat. he's a warrior but i classified him as a soldier in my original? thinking--hes a warrior. He has the ability to not only wield a sword but actually create copies of his sword and throw them at enemies.
SKill: Dart Blade
NO WAY!! you have ... By: Minan3. on 03 Dec 09, 01:04:53 NO WAY!! you have dissidia!?
man i was hoping to get a PSP? but now that i see this other game on the PS3 im inclined to get it plus i'll also have the PS3 to get the upcoming FFXIII
i wanted to also get a wii but this game i want on the PS3 is called Infamous. games really arent what they seem when you first look at it.
i guess if Shang-- the samurai resembles the civil war in a way then maybe he'll have a relation to Bryan Sutherland. maybe they can be warring enemies.
The cast looks good ... By: BlueMageWithSoulEdge. on 03 Dec 09, 00:55:42 The cast looks good. I like the Samurai. He looks like he was in the Civil War. XD
Is the story gonna be on paper or? are you going to upload them in episodes?
Sorry for the long wait. I'm playing Dissida. Yeah...
sorry about that , ... By: Minan3. on 29 Nov 09, 22:07:54 sorry about that , maybe when i make a butt load of these characters i'll do the same thing. i was just happy to at least upload a vid; i still lack a camera? :(
for now im getting ready to record with zsnes somwhow :)
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